We have an acronym commonly used on board: LBH which stands for let’s be honest. It is a small way of pushing everyone into saying what they are honestly feeling or, more commonly, used to prepare people that what you are about to say might be more honest than they are prepared for.
LBH: It is hard being here. So hard at times. This weekend one of my oldest friends is getting married and although we have grown apart over the years I never imagined missing her wedding. We use to talk about it and make all the little girl dreams of that special day and now that it is actually happening I am thousands of miles away. Being away is hard and frustrating.
I’ll be frustrated all this week while I wait for someone to remember me and email over some pictures. The pictures will be bad, maybe out of focus, and will hardly capture the beauty of her wedding. But I will be appreciative because what other option do I have? Being away is hard, frustrating and weird.
It’s weird being so far away from everyone that you know and love. How do you return to a life you do not know, to people you do not know? In the two years that I have lived in
Missing so many huge life moments makes the idea of going home even scarier. I am now at the point when I need to start thinking about what I will do next and that is scary. Because I have no solid idea and way too many options it seems. Staying here is my heart’s desire but will make my eventual return home even harder. Staying in the States will be a difficult adjustment and will involve a lot of changes since I will have to live with the consequences of missing two years of everyone’s life. Being away is hard, frustrating, weird, scary, and I have no idea what the future holds. Let’s be honest.
1 comment:
I don't know the feeling, but I do know you are definately missed here. The wedding was beautiful I email you pics.
Sparkle
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